I have done all that has been told of me. Gone to whatever Doctors I was told to. Done every procedure, regardless of cost and risk factor. Changed my ways. Stopped doing what I was told to. What do I have to show for it? I am in the same position I was in before all the procedures and doctors were involved. Everything for nothing. I got 3 clots but a b*tch ain’t one.
I am falling apart……literally. I can take random pain but when limitations are placed on how I live then I get the feeling of rocking life like a video game. My whole “Go Big or Go Home” mantra comes into play big time. I figure if I am broken, might as well push as hard as possible until the broken becomes so bad I have no choice but to stay still. I hate being hurt or sick. I feel like it’s a weakness on myself and character. Doing what I do you can’t be held as weak. People don’t want to be apart of or invest in the weak. I have lots still to do…thing to prove….things to get done……